Dark days.....sleepless nights

Feeling sad and lonely......in a fog....some dark days passing....need to reflect on how to make some positive changes and not repeat the same mistakes.

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 - The Year of the Dragon!!!!


May this new year bring good luck....good health and prosperity to all!

A rainy Monday.....but a surprisingly happy one! A fun tryst in the park......in the rain......with the one I love.....what could be better than that?

A Lonely, Rainy Saturday

See the lonely girl,
Out on the weekend
Trying to make it pay.
Can't relate to joy,
She tries to speak and
Can't begin to say.

Remebering the young girl

I think that all the movies I watched when I was a young girl....attributed to my being such a dreamer. I believed them.....I thought Cary Grant or George Peppard or someone like them was going to come into my life.....with all their suaveness and romance and I was going to have the whole thing....you know...the white picket fence.....etc. I remember every Christmas going to New York City and looking out over Rockefeller Center wondering who my "prince" was going to be. Every year.....and even through the years brought different men in my life there...to my special place.....to see if anything "magical" would happen....it would be a sign...that "he" was the "one". Well......nothing ever really happened.......that was earthshaking and could really qualify.


I still go to Rockefeller Center every year......and now I bring my own little girl there.....but I don't look out and dream about my "prince" anymore. I have had some princes in my day........it just wasn't exactly like the movies. I looked out across the ice this year.......and pictured the young girl...so many years ago..... sitting with her handsome dad having hot chocolate.....watching the skaters......and dreaming.

My little boo

Just missing my little boo.....soo soo much. My heart aches for you......and there will never be a day when I don't think of you. I love you Tootsie....and I always will. I hope you are running free and are playing at the Rainbow Bridge until I am blessed to see you again.

New Year Wish-0-lutions

The beginning of the new year is exciting. It's like getting a fresh start.... a clean palate to color and decorate. I wish this year.....to be more patient.......to see the beauty in the simple things around me.....to focus on my health more.....to exercise for real........to get to a place where I am more comfortable in my own body....to spend quality time with my daughter......and to save for a rainy day....(there have been a bunch of those...even though I live in California...lol)

A memory

I remembered a poem I read in "SEVENTEEN Magazine" when I was 17 myself....so many moons ago. It read.....


Give me your smile
I will keep it forever
Pressed tightly 
Between the crisp, clean tissue sheets
Of my memory.

The Beginning......

My first ever post....yay! Exciting. I hope this will be a place of creativity, warmth and peace. A place to come and find beauty and inspiration. I look forward to the journey!